Its November

Its November
Its freaking cold
Its 4 in the morning
And you've realized
the most important thing.
Its not your cup of tea
Attachment is not good for you
People will do what they want
Even if it hurts you
Even if you do everything to make them happy
Even if you go an extra mile
They will do what they want
And they "I said sorry na".
Its not easy to be a small fish in a big pond
But its worst to be a good human amongst bad one.
Maybe you shouldn't have gone that one extra mile
Maybe they didn't even deserve one feet of it.
And now here you are
Inside your quilt
Cuddling with it
At 4 in the morning
In November
Thinking why you have done so much for someone
You are not crying
You are sad but more that you are lost
You are thinking that you are such a fool,
Maybe I am,
You are thinking even after doing so much
If that person doesn't care about you than who will?
Are promises so hard to keep
Or its just that people don't value words anymore?
Whatever it is you are done now
All you have in your hand is your work
Focus on it
No one is worthy of your 4am's in the morning
The only thing worthy is your work.
You are thinking is even writing this note because of a person is worthy of your time?
You want to focus on your work
But you can't do anything other than to write this
Now you don't know how to end this note
you are still having countless thoughts
You can't write all of them
But motherfucker you can certainly write your future.